Grove Press
Grove Press
Grove Press

Beyond the Game

The Collected Sportswriting of Gary Smith

by Gary Smith

“A book you should read . . . Smith weaves stories of heroes and anti-heroes alike with grace and compassion, getting inside his subjects in a way that makes you see plainly what players know so well.” –Esquire

  • Imprint Grove Paperback
  • Page Count 304
  • Publication Date September 24, 2001
  • ISBN-13 978-0-8021-3849-1
  • Dimensions 5.5" x 8.25"
  • US List Price $16.00
  • Imprint Grove Paperback
  • Publication Date September 30, 2014
  • ISBN-13 978-0-8021-9176-2
  • US List Price $13.50

About The Book

“Sport comes to us in boxes’the perimeter of our TV screen or the boundary lines of fields and courts. As much as I enjoy what goes on inside those boxes, I’ve always had the urge to bust out of them. I’ve always had the feeling that the most compelling and significant story was the one occurring beyond the game – before it, after it, above it, or under it, deep in the furnace of the psyche. . . .” –From the Preface

Gary Smith’s sportswriting stands among the best journalism being written today. His award-winning stories shatter the confines of traditional sports reportage, getting beneath the wins and losses and penetrating into the hearts of the athletes themselves’into their lives and personal struggles, their communities and their worlds.

Beyond the Game brings together fifteen of Smith’s greatest stories, from groundbreaking profiles of international stars like Mike Tyson and Magic Johnson, to intimate looks at lesser-known athletes whose lives are driven by the thrill of competition and the love of a game. There is ‘damned Yankee,” the heartbreaking story of John Malangone, who seemed destined to succeed Yogi Berra as the Yankees’ starting catcher”until his career was destroyed by the crushing weight of a childhood trauma that continued to haunt him. ‘someone to Lean On” is the inspirational story of an extraordinary retarded man named Radio and the South Carolina high school football team that has adopted him for over thirty years. ‘shadow of a Nation” tells of a Crow Indian community’s intense passion for basketball”and how former high school star Jonathan Takes Enemy must struggle to escape the tragic history of his tribe as he seeks a place in the world outside the reservation.

The stories in Beyond the Game are stories of dreams and fears, failure and triumph, self-destruction and salvation, set in the twilight shadows between the sun-drenched playing fields and brightly lit arenas at the heart of sports and the darkness of the locker rooms and lonely streets that lurk at their periphery. Each of Gary Smith’s moving stories will profoundly touch you and remain with you, long after you have closed the pages of this book.


“There is no better sportswriter at work in America today than Gary Smith. . . . This is sportswriting at its best.” –John C. Ensslin, The Rocky Mountain News

“Smith writes about athletes, coaches, owners, and fans. But the depth of his reporting, the daring nature of his storytelling, and the compelling pieces that result transcend sportswriting.” –Steve Weinberg, San Francisco Chronicle

“A book you should read . . . Smith weaves stories of heroes and anti-heroes alike with grace and compassion, getting inside his subjects in a way that makes you see plainly what players know so well.” –Esquire

“From Mike Tyson’s fractured psyche to Roger Maris’ shattered home run record, [Smith] compellingly goes beneath the game, down to the urges that propel athletes and their admirers. . . . He’s got the goods.” –Troy Patterson, Entertainment Weekly

“Gary Smith’s gift goes beyond mere skill–his humanity and empathy enrich every piece he writes. Too often these days, cynicism poses for insight, flippancy for style. Smith’s work takes us to a better place.” –Bob Costas

“Brilliant . . . I can’t praise this man highly enough.” –Joyce Carol Oates

“For sportswriting that is about those human qualities sports supposedly embodies–courage, regret, desire, heart, guts, spleen–you can’t beat Sports Illustrated scribe Gary Smith. . . . The best of [his stories] have been gathered in Beyond the Game.” –Scott Dickensheets, The Las Vegas Sun

“All the delicious digs about sportswriters–even the justly deserved–duck into hiding when Gary Smith takes the stage. There is sportswriting, and there is Smith’s writing. . . . Journalism doesn’t get any better. . . . A provocative, evocative storyteller.” –Steve Duin, The Oregonian (Portland)

“Vivid and passionate . . . These fifteen pieces set a new standard for sportswriting. Whether the reader is a die-hard fan or a lover of gifted storytelling, he or she will find Smith’s book impossible to put down.” –Publishers Weekly (starred review)

“[A] master storyteller . . . These aren’t sports stories but tales that endure, stories about the human spirit and what happens in those doubtful moments between shame and glory, triumph and tragedy.” –Gene Sapakoff, The Post and Courier (Charleston, SC)

“[Smith] covers sports but seldom will he tell you what the score was or who won. His focus is on the players as people. . . . These essays are wonderful reading, without exception.” –Booklist (starred review)

“Smith’s language brings us close to the action. . . . Along the way, his prose surprises in every line.” –Jonathan Pitts, The Baltimore Sun

“Gary Smith is more than just a sports writer in the way that Larry McMurtry does more than just write good westerns of the Elmore Leonard is more than just a crime writer. . . . Beyond the Game is also beyond the typical story collection. It’s a home run.” –Curt Schleier, The Grand Rapids Press

“These are stories of humanity beautifully told by a first-class writer at the top of his game.” –Library Journal

“A book to savor . . . [Smith] has a writing rhythm that is mesmerizing. His sentences have such clarity, such impact, that you compelled to read them again, the cadence of the words sounding almost like poetry.” –Maria M. Cornelius, The News-Sentinel (Knoxville, TN)

“Picking your favorite Gary Smith story is like choosing your favorite child. His writing is so wonderful they should back the fences up for him.” –Rick Reilly


Chapter One: Damned Yankee

Everything you will read on the next 23 pages revolves around one photograph. The rest of the old man’s past, you must understand, is all but gone. The framed baseball pictures were smashed by his hammer. The scrapbook thick with newspaper clippings was fed to the furnace in the basement of the Sears, Roebuck in Paramus, New Jersey. The trophies, with their figurines of ballplayers and eagles and angel-like women, were placed on a portable table in the middle of a ball field and annihilated, one a day, by the old man’s rifle arm. Have you ever heard the popping sound an angel makes when it’s struck by a fastball?

Surely the other artifacts that survived are too few and too baffling to be trusted. The death certificate of a seven-year-old boy … the tattered letter from the New York Yankees front office … the 1955 Louisville Slugger with the name John misspelled on the barrel.

Without the photograph, who could watch the gray-whiskered man with no laces in his shoes rummage through his trailer and not wonder if his tale is too fantastic to be true?

But then John Malangone, with a funny look on his face, a mixture of pride in the thing he’s holding and an eagerness to be rid of it, thrusts in front of you the picture, snapped on a sunny spring training day 32 years ago. You stare. No. It wasn’t a dream. The old man hasn’t gone mad. If it hadn’t been for the horror, he really might have filled Yogi Berra’s shoes. Look at the picture Just look at it.

“Kid! Come over here. Wanna take your picture.”

“Who, me? You don’t want my picture.”

“Come on! Gonna put you right between the two Hall of Fame catchers, Dickey and Cochrane. You’re gonna be plastered all over the Daily News.”

The Daily News? Naw, get somebody else.”

“Somebody else? You crazy, rookie? You’re gonna be a helluva star.”

How many of us possess a photograph of the very instant when our lives reached the top of the hill and then, with the click of the camera–because of the click of the camera–began their descent? Look closely at John Malangone, in the middle. It’s 1955. He’s 22. Touching his glove, anointing him, are the fingertips of perhaps the two greatest catchers in the history of baseball: Mickey Cochrane, on the left, a 51-year-old Yankees scout and camp instructor, and Bill Dickey, a 47-year-old Yankees coach. John has just homered in an intrasquad game. He’s fresh from leading the winter league in Venezuela in home runs, RBIs and doubles. Casey Stengel has tabbed him “the probable successor to Yogi,” even though Berra would be the Yankees’ regular starting catcher for four more seasons.

John remembers the words the tall photographer uttered just before he took the picture. John remembers the panic spreading through his stomach as he squatted between Cochrane and Dickey, the fear that someone on his block in East Harlem would see this picture in the next day’s paper and call the Daily News and tell what occurred on that summer evening 18 years before, insist that what John really deserved was a seat in a chair humming with a couple of thousand volts. John remembers everything, because memory is the whip he has used to flog himself for 60 years….

Orlando Panarese was blond and he was bashful and he was handsome and he was seven, and when he and John trampolined on the bed they usually shared, they jumped so high they nearly banged their heads. It was perfect, having your best buddy be your uncle. Having your mom’s little brother living just one floor up in a tenement on 114th Street, so your family was his family and all of you, aunts and uncles and cousins and grandparents, ended up on the roof with Uncle Duffy’s pigeons every summer Sunday, playing checkers and eating linguini with red sauce bare-chested, if you were a boy, to save your mother from spending Monday scrubbing shirts. So you could float in and out of each other’s apartments at any hour and end up in pj’s pounding each other with pillows while Mom and Grandma rolled pasta or talked another cup of coffee to death. Zi, John called Orlando, shortening the Italian word for uncle. They would slip downstairs at sunrise, while Grandma Panarese dressed for church, and earn apples for her by helping the Italian fruit peddlers pry open their crates. “Grazie, Orlando. Grazie, John,” she would say when they delivered the apples to her, bowing formally to the little boys.

They were upstairs talking, Mom and Grandma, that July evening in 1937. They couldn’t keep their eyes on five- and seven-year-old-boys all day, could they? Eleven years had passed since Grandma had lost her first Orlando, her eight-year-old son who was tagging along with his older brothers to the movies when one of them fibbed, “Go home, Orlando, Mommy’s calling you,” and the little boy turned back to cross the street and was killed by a truck. A mother can’t run scared every minute for 11 years, can she?

John found the broken umbrella rusting in the basement of his six-floor tenement. He and the boys on his block pulled off one of its metal spokes and lashed it, with rope, to a shorn-off broomstick handle. Excellent. A javelin. A new contest for the first-generation Italian-American children teeming on the streets of East Harlem. John took the javelin, paced down 114th Street and eyed his goal: the pile of sand the peddlers would shovel onto the wooden ramp leading into the stables next to John’s apartment building, so their horses wouldn’t slip in their own urine. The other boys stood in a group in front of the candy store and watched.

John reached back and threw himself, all of himself, into that javelin. Maybe it flew a little off the side of his hand, and maybe it went farther than anyone thought a boy his size could throw it. Every time he has seen it happen ever since—on the sides of water glasses, on cabinet doors, on outfield walls–he has squinted and tried to discern whether it was a misjudgment of his might or a flaw in technique. But he knew, as he watched the javelin arc, that he was in trouble, and he knew when he heard the boys gasp that it had hit someone, and he knew when he approached the tight circle of children and frantic adults and saw two small feet protruding–one sock of solid color and one sock striped–that it was Uncle Orlando. Because when he looked down at the ground, the other striped sock and the other solid one were on his own feet.

A boy turned to John. “You’re in trouble,” he said.

“Spell that name for me.”


“Your last name, kid. You pronounce it Mal-an-go-nee, right? Gotta make sure they spell it right when they run this picture. M … a … Is it two l’s or one in Malangone?”

“Uh … yeah … two … two l’s.”

He remembers cringing that day as the photographer scribbled in his notepad. Another secret they were closing in on. Another secret that each line drive off his bat, each shotgun throw from his arm to rub out a runner stealing second was leading them closer and closer to discovering: The 22-year-old Yankees hotshot couldn’t read or write. Oh, they would find out why, sure as the sunshine beating on his shoulders as he crouched between Cochrane and Dickey.

He had shoved it out of his mind since the day he had signed, but now, as the shutter clicked, he could smell it: the beginning of the end. The story of the lovable homegrown Italian boy laying siege to the position of the lovable, aging Italian Hall of Fame catcher, the story of a kid as strong as thunder and flakier than snow, able to awaken from a dead sleep in December and out-malaprop Berra, out-Yogi Yogi–you don’t think the New York tabloid wretches, the chroniclers of the greatest dynasty in baseball history, are going to crawl all over that? You don’t think they’re going to find out how his brain shut down because of the accident and how neither he nor all the letters and numbers he stared at could ever stay still after the next shock?

You can’t figure on anything in life. You can’t figure on a javelin flying through the air and hitting someone’s skull, let alone your uncle’s. And then, once it does, you can’t figure on him pulling it out with his own hands, and, oh, thank God, standing up. And walking home with the help of his mother, barely bleeding because it’s a puncture wound, and looking all right for a few days, thankyouthankyouGod … until the small red swelling appears. Nobody ever told John that the wound became infected and that Orlando was taken to a hospital and that he underwent surgery to relieve the swelling but that the infection kept spreading because the use of penicillin was still four years away; Jesus, it’s so easy to hoodwink a five-year-old boy. Nobody told him anything, not even what all the commotion was upstairs in Grandma’s apartment and why all the adults looked so sunken-eyed. They forgot all about John for a moment, and he wandered up the steps and through the door and into a room where he saw a box surrounded by white drapes and flowers. He stared at it, too short to see its freight. He moved closer, closer. He stepped up onto the kneeler. Orlando …? God, he looked beautiful. Why was he sleeping there? Zi, what’s wrong? ZI, WAKE UP!

That was how John learned what his right arm had done. That was when he screamed, and his right eardrum popped, and his tongue nearly went down his throat, and the corner of his mouth and his right hand went numb–for the first time. That was when he lost half of his hearing and, for nearly a year, every word of English he had learned. That was when Grandma burst into the room and found the catatonic boy and shrieked at God, “No, not this one too!” And rushed him to the room in her apartment that she had turned into a chapel and held him near the candles and the crucifix and the statues of St. Anthony and Mother Mary and Baby Jesus, her fumbling fingers pouring olive oil into a small bowl and dropping into it a piece of wool torn from mattress stuffing, then striking a match to light the wool and warm the oil, and thrusting her thumb into the liquid and using it to rub tiny signs of the cross on the boy’s forehead, his nose, his chin, his temples and behind his ears, murmuring ancient words that had been passed down to her, until her eyelids slowly sagged and a great yawning fatigue overcame her, as it always did when she healed the old way.

“Shhhh. Don’t say a word,” they said to each other when the boy finally fell asleep. “He’s quiet now. Don’t say a word about any of this–ever–do you hear me? He’s only five. He’ll forget everything if no one ever says a word.”

Go back to the photograph. Perhaps you see it now: the uncertainty in John’s smile, in his eyes. Perhaps you see what John sees when he looks at that picture today. “Half of that boy is missing,” he says. “That’s just a body there. That’s just a shadow I was casting. That’s just a shell.”

The police arrived at John’s apartment after Orlando’s death. The five-year-old boy climbed out the back window and hid on the fire escape until they were gone. He had evaded them, he thought. For now. But then a kid on the street called him Killer. A woman who saw her daughter talking to John cried, “Stay away from him!” One of the Mafia members who ruled his block slapped him on the back and said, “Ya got one under ya belt, kid!”

And then no one saw him. The alleyways behind the tall tenements became his home. On his way to and from school he could go for blocks scrambling over the tall mesh fences that separated one building from the next, never seeing the sun except when he darted over a cross street to the next alley. He could go for hours hurling balls in the shadows at a clock he drew in chalk on an alley wall, aiming first at 1 o’clock until he nailed it on the button, then one by one around to 12, over and over and over, taming the arm that had betrayed him. Then he would line up two dozen bottles, hurling anything when his rubber ball had disintegrated–rotten apples, oranges, stones–exulting silently when the bottles exploded and the noise shattered off the walls. Soon he was turning his back on his target, spinning and blindly throwing, throwing, throwing. … When at last he grew weary, he would grab a stick and imagine that he was conducting an orchestra, sending waves of beautiful music swelling up the tenement walls.

When it snowed and the block was empty, the boy would emerge. The people would hear a relentless scraping noise, and when they peered out, the sidewalk up and down 114th Street between First and Second Avenue would be bare.

He risked exposure only in exchange for exhaustion. He would race to the coal yards three blocks away, and for a quarter, but not really for the quarter, he would take some malingerer’s shovel and do the man’s task all day. He would endlessly wax and polish the Mob’s black Chryslers, long after they were already gleaming, in the alley behind their clubhouse. He went to the basement where the old paisanos made wine, and he hand-cranked the press until his arms screamed. He stood on three empty soda eases and pounded the speed bag in the Silver Star boxing dub, just down the street from his apartment building. He mucked the peddlers’ stables, wrung water from neighboring women’s wet laundry with his thickening wrists, wrung so tightly he sometimes ripped the clothing, trying so hard to please everyone around him and to fatigue the creature into tongue-hanging silence.

The creature?

Yeah. You know. The thing. The hunchback, just behind John’s shoulder. Can’t: you see it in the photograph? The one that could show up at any moment when John wasn’t throwing or shoveling or mucking or wringing or punching. The beast he would suddenly hear laughing faintly and mumbling so softly that John had to lean to make out the words. You…. You killer, you…. You know what you deserve…. He would shut his eyes, clutch his head, cover his ears, and still he’d sense it, still he’d hear it. It looked like … yes, almost exactly like Quasimodo, the terrifying humped creature with half a sunken face whom John kept returning to the Cosmo Theater to stare at in The Hunchback of Notre Dame … only somehow the eyes and nose and mouth of the hunchback stalking John were his own.

His head would begin to throb. His throat would tighten; he couldn’t swallow, he couldn’t breathe! His right ear would pop and begin to ring, his throwing hand would go numb, the right edge of his mouth would curve up, his arms shiver, his equilibrium vanish, his vision tunnel and blur. And now, upon whatever surface his eyes fled to, he would see and hear the javelin arcing through the air, making that terrible swishing sound, and then the coffin, looming larger and larger as if he were a small boy again, stepping nearer and nearer to it, and then, Orlando’s beautiful face inside it. And John’s fist or his baseball bat would lash out at the image, and suddenly there was a hole in the wall or the cabinet or the wardrobe in his bedroom, and his mother was scurrying to find someone to patch it before his hot-tempered father came home.

“Why?” he would hear his father scream at his mother. “Why did you leave him alone that day? It’s your fault!” But never, ever, was the subject mentioned when John was in the room. The boy might go two nights, three nights in a row without sleep, and when at last he dozed he would dream that he was running down 114th Street, racing against the javelin, reaching up to catch it before it landed, and then he would awaken, shouting “Orlando!” in a puddle of urine and sweat.

He knotted two dark socks together and tied them around his head, covering his ears, to keep out that maddening swishing sound whenever the wind blew, or whenever he tried to outrun the son of a bitch, all the way from East Harlem to Greenwich Village….

Still mumbling. Still there.

Maybe he could drown the bastard. Maybe if he jumped into the Harlem River off the Willis Avenue Bridge and stayed underwater for one minute … two minutes….

Still laughing. Still there.

Maybe if he stuck his grandmother’s sewing needle into his throwing arm….

He felt nothing. Still there.

Maybe if he careened down the ramp off the Triborough Bridge on a bicycle with no chain or brakes, he could shatter the hunchback.

He broke his leg.

Maybe he had to pinpoint the demon’s location first. Maybe if he turned swiftly when he walked through snow, he could see footprints, the same way the police finally located and killed the Invisible Man in the next movie that obsessed John at the Cosmo. Maybe fabric would reveal the creature’s whereabouts, as it did in the film. Maybe if John stood in front of a mirror nonchalantly and suddenly tossed one of his grandmother’s black veils over his shoulder it would land on the demon’s head and then John could whirl and throttle it. Maybe if he heaved a handful of his mother’s baby powder over his shoulder…. No! Nothing! Damn him!

There were only two things to be done. Hurry to the arms of his mother, Josephine–she hugged him, soothed him without ever saying what she was soothing away and led him to her own mother, who would stop the pounding in his forehead and temples by rubbing them with warm olive oil. Or he could race to Mount Cannel church and go up into its tower to sit with the bells just like the hunchback did in the movie to escape his enemies. Inside the church where the demon couldn’t pursue John, he would light a votive candle and pray feverishly, “Make him stop, God! Make him go away! Please, God, I’ll do your work, I’ll help people, please!”

He would give the shoes off his feet to a beggar. He planned to become a priest, choke the demon with the collar, but he couldn’t even cut it as an altar boy. Instructions bewildered him; he just couldn’t concentrate. He would turn the wrong way on the altar, forget what part of the Mass was coming next, spill the wine, exasperate the priest. It was the same story in school, where the letters and numbers swam, and he would end up in the back of the classroom, the perennial dope, lovable but hopeless.

No one could stay mad at him–except his father, the barber. Sylvester Malangone would come home and find his wife gone again, always upstairs with her mom; her guilt over her son’s killing of her mother’s son had turned her into Grandma’s slave. Sylvester’s jealous rage would begin to boil, and at the slightest excuse he would seize the thick barber’s strap he kept on a hook and rip into his eldest son, John, knowing that the thumps and cries would bring his wife racing downstairs in tears, back where she belonged.

After the rat the beatings grew worse. John awoke to an earthquake one night when he was 10; his father heaved the mattress right off the bed on which John and his brother, Sylvester Jr., were sleeping, and lunged for a rat of terrifying size. Now John’s dad had the rodent where he wanted it, shrieking behind the radiator, just enough space between the radiator’s fibs to insert one of the boys’ bed slats and pin the rat against the wall. The shrieking grew ghastly, almost human, and sweat erupted from the father’s pores as his two sons cowered behind him, but he drove the slat home and blood spattered them, and the father swooned and cried out and began to shake. He ended up in a straitjacket at Bellevue, and when he came home a month later, his fury at John had grown even larger.

Five decades would pass before John would learn that his father, too, carried a terrible secret. Fifty years of silence and rage until John learned about the day that his dad, then just a seven-year-old boy, had been so happy to see his own mother coming home from another long day at a sweatshop that he and his two brothers had thrown a bear hug around her legs on the street, toppling her backward onto the jagged edges of a steel garbage can, causing a wound that became infected, just like Orlando’s, and killed her. And John, when he finally heard the story, understood instinctively that everything he had turned in on himself, his father had turned outward–upon John, the son who had also killed a loved one accidentally.

The beatings stopped all at once when John was 15. His father grabbed the strap one day, enraged at John’s younger brother for a change, after the boy had knocked the family’s radio off the counter and broken it, and cocked his arm behind his ear to let the boy have it, when … huh? The barber yanked down, and yanked again, but it was as if the strap were nailed to a ceiling beam. He looked over his shoulder and saw John clutching the strap with one hand. “You son of a bitch!” Sylvester Sr. shouted. “So you want it!” And he yanked and yanked, until it dawned on him that his boy was a 5′ 10″, 195-pound man, arms and thighs like a stevedore’s from all the frantic shoveling and mucking and punching, and his strap would remain where it was for all time if John so willed it.

The barber grew small before John’s eyes. John let go of the strap. His father opened a window and flung the strap into the alley.

Sylvester Sr.’s eyes widened: Out the door John darted, returning in seconds and placing the strap back on its hook.

He needed the lashes. They made him feel good.


©2000 by Gary Smith.  Reprinted with permission from Grove Atlantic, Inc. All rights reserved.