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In the Deep Heart’s Core

by Michael Johnston

“Inspiring. . . . Readers will find that this was a learning process as much for the teacher as it was for the students.” –Mark Alan Williams, Library Journal

  • Imprint Grove Paperback
  • Page Count 256
  • Publication Date September 17, 2003
  • ISBN-13 978-0-8021-4024-1
  • Dimensions 5.5" x 8.25"
  • US List Price $16.00

About The Book

The uplifting story of a Teach for America volunteer in the rural Mississippi Delta that Robert Coles has praised as “a compelling and important moral witness to education efforts today.”

In the fall of 1997, Michael Johnston went to the rural Mississippi Delta–the ‘deep heart’s core” of the South–as a member of the Teach For America program to become an English teacher in one of the poorest districts in the nation. At Greenville High School, he would confront a racially divided world in which his African-American students had to struggle daily against a legacy of crippling poverty and the scourges of drug addiction and gang violence that ravaged their community. In the Deep Heart’s Core tells the story of how Johnston reached out to inspire his teenage students with all the means at his disposal–from the language of the great poets, to the strategies of chess, to the vigor of athletics.

But more important, In the Deep Heart’s Core brings to life the students of Greenville High, their passion for learning and dreams of a better world. Their stories, by turns heartbreaking and hopeful, harrowing and uplifting, form the emotional center of this powerful book. A charismatic class clown races to complete his coursework as his window of opportunity for earning a diploma is quickly shutting. A record-breaking track star draws the attention of college coaches from across the nation, but his poor grades threaten to push him from the bright spotlight of local celebrity to the obscure twilight of failure. A teenage mother’s devotion to her infant son sparks a renewed commitment for academic success and an unyielding determination for a better future. And a vocational student emerges to find his voice as a writer, before having to face a choice that will change the course of his life forever.

Vibrantly alive with the rich atmosphere of the Mississippi Delta–the haunting beauty of its hollows and aching tragedy of its history–In the Deep Heart’s Core is a compassionate, eloquent, and profoundly moving book. It is an inspiring and unforgettable story of one young man’s experience in the Teach For America program, and the story of how a new generation of teachers is reaching out to give hope to the students whom society has forgotten.

Praise

“Part personal account, part eyewitness report, In the Deep Heart’s Core is forceful testimony. . . . There is much to appreciate in Johnston’s well-written memoir of his two-year sojourn in Greenville. . . . His best attribute seems to be his boundless energy. . . . Johnston proves to be a clear-eyed narrator, resolute, unsentimental and not full of himself.” –Jabari Asim, Washington Post Book World

“It’s a touching tale of hope where there often seems to be none. . . . More than just a memoir. . . . [In the Deep Heart’s Core] paints a picture in many shades of frustration, anger and hope. . . . It’s a startling glimpse into the system, one that has seemingly been forgotten by reform and time. ” –Simon Reade, San Francisco Chronicle

“Johnston tells his story through the words of students, unspooling experiences a little at a time so that the reader learns as the author learns. . . . In the Deep Heart’s Core is powerful because Johnston doesn’t explain his students; he lets them explain themselves. . . . His book poses a big “what if.” If the barriers in their lives were eliminated, to what heights could the students of Greenville High School and others like them soar?” –Carol Ann Lease, The Columbus Dispatch

“A pleasant surprise. . . . [In the Deep Heart’s Core is] smack full of emotional deepness that even brought tears to my eyes. One minute I would be excited and the next I would have chills running down my spine.” –Barbara Putnam, Delta Democrat

“In a nation where too many poor children and children of color still attend separate and unequal schools, Michael Johnston is part of a new generation of fine young educational leaders committed to making a difference. In the Deep Heart’s Core shares lessons for all of us who believe every child can learn and that no child should be left behind.”–Marian Wright Edelman, President of the Children’s Defense Fund and author of the #1 New York Times bestseller The Measure of Our Success: A Letter to My Children and Yours

“Michael Johnston’s book about his two years as a teacher at an all black high school in the Mississippi Delta resembles great war reporting from a battlefield composed of the hearts, minds and future of his young students already tragically short-changed in the game of life. Wise, eloquent, and impassioned, this eyewitness dispatch from the trenches should be required reading for anyone who claims to care about education in this country and for everyone else who wants to see a better world.”–Madeleine Blais, author of Uphill Walkers, Hope is a Muscle and In These Girls

“This is a deep and profound work, written with simple-eyed clarity, about one man’s journey into the heart of the real America, the one we never see, the one we only see from behind the wheel of a tightly locked car. Michael Johnston’s class at Greenville High is a place of hope, despair, tragedy, encouragement, and joy. I admire his students and I am a better person having read about them.”–James McBride, author of The Color of Water

“A compelling and important moral witness to educational efforts today.”–Robert Coles, Pulitzer Prize-winning author of Children of Crisis

“A tenderly written and poetic work of selflessness and quiet decency, filled with passages of hard-earned victory and personal transcendence. A poignant book that is bittersweet because it is framed by so much unforgotten history.”–Johathan Kozol, author of Savage Inequalities: Children in America’s Schools and Amazing Grace: The Lives of Children and the Conscience of a Nation

“What comes through loud and clear is that most of the students have the same needs and desires as do students in other areas of the country. The sad thing is that they don’t have the resources to get them. [In the Deep Heart’s Core is] a wonderfully written and compelling read, touching in some spots and appalling in others. If you’re a teacher and think you’ve got it bad, read this one.” –Faye Dasen, Southern Pines Pilot

“Johnston’s story is one of hope and understanding with a perceptive appreciation for the myriad of issues facing public education. . . . Johnston’s English teaching must have imitated his writing, for his prose is filled with lyrical and metaphorical allusions that bring life to the scenes he depicts.” –Martin Winchester, Monitor

“What makes Johnston’s account noteworthy is his ability to move beyond making generalizations. . . . He takes readers into the constricted–and often doomed–lives of individuals. . . . Compassion, leavened with good sense, makes this honest and often painful account a moving, memorable call for action.”–Publishers Weekly

“Confronted with tragedy . . . and triumph . . . Johnston marveled at the tenacity of his students and the hope that flourished under even the most forbidding of circumstances. Johnston is both gifted and dedicated; his warm and moving memoir should be required reading for anyone who wants to teach.” –Kristine Huntley, Booklist

“Inspiring. . . . Readers will find that this was a learning process as much for the teacher as it was for the students.” –Mark Alan Williams, Library Journal

“A poignant account.” –Mark Sorkin, Book

Excerpt

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Two white women stood side by side inside the Enterprise Rent-A-Car office, a ticket-booth-sized building in a dirt parking lot. They smiled and extended a warm welcome. The three of us were well along in the business of renting a car without any exchange of personal information, when one looked up from the form and asked politely, “Place of employment?”

“Greenville High School.”

It was the first time I had given an answer to that question that did not include “student.”

The woman working behind the desk suddenly turned to me and exclaimed, “Oh! You poor thing!”

“What are you going to teach?” the other one asked in obvious surprise.

“English.”

This met with an overwhelming burst of laughter from both of them, not cold derisive laughter, but the gallows laughter that comes at the realization of troubles shared.

The lady at the counter chimed in, “You know that’s a foreign language down here!”

“Are you from Greenville?” I asked, trying to smile with them.

“Yes, unfortunately.”

“I’m looking for a place to live,” I said. “Do you have any suggestions?”

The first lady, Nicki, glanced at the rental-car form and ­responded, “Well, we just moved down to Riverside.” I knew nothing about Riverside, but her posture said it all. It was the same ­attitude of self-disappointment that I would get later from good students who had let mediocre students copy their work–a knowledge that without actually doing wrong herself, she had let something deeply wrong pass by her without protest. Nicki’s quiet penitence bespoke a decency that put me at ease for the rest of the conversation. “We used to live up here in Greenville back when I was pregnant with Josh. . . .”

Nicki went on to tell me that some years ago she was pregnant with her second child and living in Greenville. Although she never told me where, based on her description it must have been one of Greenville’s working-class neighborhoods that sociologists would term “in transition.” Over the next few days I would find that people in Greenville just call them “turning,” meaning “turning black.” She was on the front porch of her mother’s house, talking to her mother and monitoring her toddler as he sat on the porch. Whatever the demographics of her neighborhood, it was evidently no shock to see a little black boy riding a bicycle on her street; therefore, she paid him no mind. When she turned her back to the street, while reaching over to pick something up for her child, she heard a pop and felt a sharp, deep pain in her backside as she fell to the ground.

As Nicki described it, this boy had been ordered to shoot somebody for initiation to his neighborhood gang. All of nine years old, his tiny hands barely big enough to hold the handlebars of his bike and keep a gun under his shirt at the same time, he had pulled up to Nicki’s porch and decided he had found his target. Evidently as shocked as Nicki, the boy dropped his bike and did not move until the police came. She was taken to the hospital and was eventually fine, as was the baby she was carrying. “Luckily, I had some padding,” she said with a shy smile. Because he was nine years old, the boy had to wait at Nicki’s house while the police called his mother to come to accompany him for questioning.

After that, Nicki and her husband decided it was time to move to Riverside, a white community about twenty miles south of Greenville. From Nicki I learned the fundamental pattern of racial migration in Greenville. The blacks lived north of Highway 82, and the whites lived south of it; as the blacks drifted south, the whites drifted still farther south. However, moving to Riverside was not a subtle migration but a drastic action, like a wealthy man at an auction elevating the price with one unreachable bid. Wary of moving a few blocks farther south every few years to avoid the encroaching black presence, the whites who moved to Riverside decided to make one definitive twenty-mile step.

Nicki informed me that her neighbors had more direct methods of dealing with threats of integration. People on her street had organized a pact such that whenever a black family looked at a vacant house or lot in the area, the neighbors would pool their money and encourage the realtor to accept their false payment in earnest on the lot, then tell the family that, with regrets, the lot had already been taken. Once the family had safely given up and gone looking someplace else, the money was returned and the “For Sale” sign replanted.

Before I left the car rental office, I asked directions to the school. Nicki’s coworker told me that it was right down the street that ran behind the building. She said she knew this all too well because the students gathered behind her office to smoke pot ­before they went to school. She proceeded to play the cards she had been holding so tightly, anxious to add her perspective on Greenville, and as she did I could tell from Nicki’s silence that she was a little ashamed of her coworker. The woman told me how “these kids” went to school only to deal drugs, and how she had thought about teaching, had even been a teacher once, but all they wanted over there now were baby-sitters: None of the kids came to learn.

I gathered my papers and the car keys and thanked them both. I was about to turn and leave when Nicki said something I will never forget: “The blacks keep moving into our neighborhoods, and you gotta take sides.”

What surprised me was that she delivered her comment with a profound sadness, the way a sister talks to a brother about their parents’ divorce, the way we talk about lost friends whom we never truly conceded losing.

Although it was the only open business on South Hinds Street, it was still difficult to locate the small brown sign that read realty. I walked into a depressing, dimly lit brown room with a hefty man sitting behind a desk. A stout man with a closely trimmed beard and a soft middle-aged wave in his hair, Sherborn had the face and the long substanceless pauses of a small-town politician. After brief introductions, in which he seemed disinterested, I asked him what properties he had for rent. Sherborn scratched his beard and glanced toward the room behind him.

“We got any friends with carriage houses open right now?” he called out.

A female voice with a soft drawl called back, “What about the Smiths? I think the boy who was staying in their carriage house moved back to Biloxi.”

“There you go.” Sherborn picked up the phone and dialed. Tilting the receiver, he directed his comments toward me as he waited for an answer: “What we need to do is put you in a carriage house with one of these nice families where you won’t have to worry about safety or anything. This other Realtor friend of mine’s got one, although he might not give it to me. He’s still a little pissed because I sent him some blacks a while back. They were good blacks though. I knew ’em. There are some you know well enough, they probably ain’t gonna move in and shoot the place up.”

Fortunately, the man he was calling answered the phone and liberated me from making a response.

“Bob,” he said, “I got a kid here looking for a carriage house. He looks like a decent kid, doesn’t have long hair or earrings or any of that mess. You smoke pot, son?”

I shook my head.

“He don’t smoke pot or nothing. Aww, come on, you’re not still mad at me about those blacks, are ya? How they doing so far? Well, there ya go, I told you they was good ones.” There was a pause as Sherborn listened to his friend’s response; then he let out a bellowing laugh and hung up the phone. “Well, turns out he’s already rented his to somebody. Sorry, that’s the only carriage house I know of. I only got one or two other properties and those are both gonna be too big and out of your price range.”

I waited for him to acknowledge that the wall behind his desk was covered with photographs of houses with red tags beneath them that read “For Rent.” I picked out one of the photographs behind him that looked attractive and affordable.

“What about that one?” I asked.

He stared at me for a long moment, waiting to see if I would withdraw the question. Reluctantly, he swiveled his chair around to study the wall of photographs behind him.

“Oh yeah, that one,” he said, “well, yeah, there’s that one if you want it. . . .”

It was as if I had just inquired about a tree house.

“How much is it?”

“Probably around . . . four hundred seventy-five dollars,” he said. I asked about another house on the wall and it received the same reaction. I asked for the addresses of the two places so that I could investigate. He obliged, listlessly handed me the keys to both houses, and sent me on my way.

When I found the first address on Havana Street, which was the one that I preferred, I knew I did not need to search for the second, as my assumption had been correct: a black neighborhood. Not even in transition.

The house looked wonderful, so I decided it was time to explore the neighborhood. In Greenville, steps and shade may as well be La-Z-Boys and mai tais, because they are the only requirements for a good gathering place. Under a carport across the street, a group of eight or ten people sat in the shade: some perched on a mother’s knee, some crawling, some playing with the scattered debris of toys in the yard, some smoking cigarettes, some drinking from paper bags.

There were at least three grown men and two grown women in the group, and conversation continued through a constantly opening screen door, with some unseen party giving occasional direction from the living room. I turned from the steps of my potential new house and began on a direct line for those shaded steps. Several members of the group had been watching me and continued doing so, still disinterested by the fact that there seemed to be no other place I could be going but toward them. I was across the lawn and under the carport before an uncomfortable silence acknowledged that ignoring me would not make me go away. Fearing the silence, I introduced myself and told them that I was a new teacher at Greenville High. I extended my hand to an older, dignified-­looking man wearing a work hat. He looked at my hand as if I were offering him a pile of mud, and then looked away.

I stumbled into a question about the safety of the neighborhood–one that I realized was probably insulting as soon as I had asked it–as a yellow Caprice Classic turned the corner and pulled up the driveway. A woman in her mid-forties stepped out. A girl, perhaps seventeen, got out of the backseat holding a child who could have been her brother or her son. Two other young men, who could have been brothers or boyfriends, emerged from the car. The next few minutes were a constant commotion of passing babies, picking up toddlers, carrying things to and from the car, greeting and drinking, and universally disregarding the strange white boy standing frozen in the middle of the carport. At one point, without yet having been spoken to, I ended up holding a baby and a large toy.

Evidently I had done something, either through my dumb perseverance or my successful handling of the baby and the toy, so that the taciturn gentleman who had at first refused my handshake was reconsidering my qualifications as a neighbor. He gestured toward my house and said something so quietly that it was inaudible. Pleased that he was conceding to talk to me, or even to talk while I was in his presence, I stepped closer to him and asked, “Pardon?” My question did not stop or even delay his sentence, but I was now close enough to hear what he was saying. He spoke in a gentle, deliberate voice, his cadence animated by that distinct Southern lilt I grew to love:

“Yeah, that preacher sho’ stayed there. Musta been ’bout two years now. I usta cut dat yard, and dem bushes too. Man damn near tore the place up for a preacher. Now he done got his own church up by Shaw somewheres. Left off to live with his kinfolk. Wife never too much came down here, she always stayed up there with her people. He sho’ had some folks living up in there, always somebody comin’ and goin’, couldn’t hardly keep track of the cars. Used to have all sorts of lil’uns over there, always got to throwing stuff up on the ruf, I reckon you got a ruf full of crap up there. Put that cellophane around the windows though. Done right by that.”

As he was talking, he was drifting out into the yard and toward the street. By the time he had told me about how exactly he had cut the grass and the wall of shrubs that lined the eastern and southern sides of the front yard, we were standing right next to them. I thanked him for his help and asked him his name. He muttered something about his real name that I could not catch, but said that I could call him “Reb.” He looked south down Havana Street as if measuring something. A block away, a group of meandering boys filled the street with their slouching bodies and boisterous conversation.

“Seven years ago I was the first black to move up into this neighborhood,” he said. “When I moved in white folks wouldn’t even shake my hand. I moved into that house right there.” He pointed across Havana to the south. “I worked every day, come home every night and had a drink and set right on dat porch and dat was it. Then dat family down the road up and moved in. Come a while, mo’ and mo’ black folk moves in and mo’ and mo’ white folk moves out. But they still some white folks that stayed, and I don’t blame ’em none neither. Old white couple lives down there. ‘Nuther white guy and his ma live down that a way and they don’t have no trouble. They wasn’t fixing to be run out of their neighborhood and I got no problem with ’em staying. They do fine here.”

It was only then that I realized he was trying to assuage what he perceived to be my fear of living in a black neighborhood by pointing out where the rest of my people lived. Anxious to correct his assumption, I told him that I was not in the least bit worried about living in a black neighborhood, and left it at that.

“Have you ever had any problem with safety here?” I asked.

Reb smiled amicably and began to diagram the vulnerabilities of my house as if he were defending against an invasion. “You know ain’t nobody coming through that woman’s yard.”

Immediately behind my house was a very nice brown brick house with a Lexus in the driveway and what looked like a Mercedes parked inside the garage. Whether Reb was right or not about the tenacity of that woman, it seemed clear that she had much more to defend than I did.

“And you see that porch over there, well that’s where I stay,” Reb continued, pointing to the shotgun house where he had told me he first moved seven years before. “And you see that one right next to it, well that’s where my buddy stay. We gets off work
every day at four o’clock, and from four o’clock until when we go to bed we gonna be sitting right there. That’s all the safety you need.”

I couldn’t help but smile. Reb saw it, and for the first time cracked his weathered lips just far enough that I could see his decay­ing teeth.

Nelson had mentioned that “work was still being done” on the house and that the electricity had not yet been turned on, so I thanked Reb and decided to take a look inside the house before it got dark. I opened the front door and stepped into the front room that I had seen through the window. It was as splendid as I imagined: The walls and ceiling were newly painted white; the wooden floors were undamaged, although still covered with drop cloths; and an entire wall of bookshelves stood perfectly cleaned and painted. Unfortunately, I walked far enough into the kitchen to see that all the appliances had been removed and all the tiles and counters stripped out; the same was true of the bathroom.

I was sufficiently enchanted by the front room and my conversation with Reb that I returned to Nelson and told him I would take the house. Ten days remained before school started, time enough for me to return to Colorado, gather all my stuff, and return to Greenville in time to move in and have a couple of days to get settled before classes began. I asked Nelson to ensure that the work on the house be completed by the time I returned from Colorado the following Wednesday. Nothing about the process seemed to interest him. He seemed skeptical that this would happen, although he agreed to put the work stipulation in the contract. He tucked my check into the desk and resumed staring at me blankly, waiting for me to leave. As Nelson’s door swung closed behind me, I tried not to think about my suspicion that as I walked toward my rental car Nelson was having a good hard laugh over a joke I didn’t get.

My first full day in Greenville had seemed impossibly long, but it had been productive and even successful. To reward myself, I decided to stop in McCormick’s Book Inn, a small bookstore that I had noticed during the course of my house hunting. The store was a modest wooden house separated from the road by a deep square gravel driveway and a few rickety wooden steps.

McCormick was a pensive ponytailed man with glasses, knowledgeable and talkative: a perfect find for a curious newcomer. After browsing through the store’s Mississippi section for a while, I introduced myself and explained that I was a new teacher looking for a place to live.

“Is it possible to find integrated neighborhoods in Greenville?” I asked.

“Oh yeah, most of ’em are at this point,” he responded.

“Where would be a good place to look?”

He spent a couple of minutes describing neighborhoods on the southern half of town, neighborhoods that my bumbling research had determined were predominantly white.

“Where do you live?” I asked as unobtrusively as possible.

“Not too far from here,” he said as he gestured around the corner. This put him in a rather wealthy neighborhood. He did not want to be more specific about where he lived and I did not want to be more intrusive, but I could tell he was reluctantly withholding his real opinions.

“Is there still a lot of racial animosity in Greenville?” I asked.

He exhaled at length and let his shoulders drop, taking off his glasses to clean them on his shirt. He gathered his air, straightened his shoulders, adjusted his glasses and looked me in the face. He spoke slowly and carefully, knowing that any careless phrase could be dangerously misconstrued. I have never met a white person from Greenville who spoke of race with more tenderness, precision, or honesty than Mr. McCormick did on that August night.

“You know what some of my neighbors call my street? Congo Lane. Because a lot of the black kids walk down my street every day to get to school and get home from school. A lot of my neighbors think that’s very funny. Do I laugh at it? No. Do I tell them that I’m disgusted by their humor? No. I turn and walk away and keep fairly much to myself, and those folks don’t much befriend me anymore.

“We live in a pretty nice neighborhood, but we’ve been there for over twenty years. When we first moved there it wasn’t so nice, but there didn’t happen to be any blacks in the neighborhood. Now we have a number of black families that live on our street. Sure, there were people who were a little skittish about them moving in when they first arrived, but they’ve done wonderfully. They like the neighborhood and the neighborhood likes them. Why? Because they share a similar lifestyle. It’s not a question of race, it’s a question of values.

“I would love to live in a whole city made of people like my two black neighbors, regardless of what color or religion or nationality they were. Would I want to live in the middle of one of these black neighborhoods down here on Clay Street? Absolutely not. Would I want these people from Clay Street to move into my neighborhood and be my neighbors? Absolutely not. Is it because they’re black? No! It has nothing to do with them being black; it has to do with what they value and what I value. And I’m not putting a judgment on what their values are. They just happen to be different from my own. But that’s not racism. That’s just wanting to live your own life. That’s the way I look at it. It’s not the color of the skin, it’s the way people choose to live.”

As I heard him say this I wondered if Reb shared McCormick’s values. I supposed it depended on the value. Did he work an honest day every day, or did he wear a collared shirt to work? Did he treat people with dignity and respect, or did he make sure that his lawn was mowed? Did he sit on his porch and drink beer from a paper bag, or did he drink it in the privacy of his own home while he watched television? Did he have children out of wedlock, or did he just go to strip clubs when he closed a big deal? Which exactly were the values that mattered? I didn’t think to ask McCormick those questions that night, because I believed that–like Nicki–we were living the best answer we could find.

Excerpted from In the Deep Heart’s Core

©2002 by Michael Johnston. Reprinted with permission from Grove Atlantic, Inc. All rights reserved.